Hello,
You have found your way to my Mom’s blog and now she will find her way into your heart here on MY MOM MATTERS.
My beloved Mom passed away May 6th, 2011. It has been extremely painful for me dealing with this loss. I have decided to start this blog in hopes that I could share my feelings, as well as, share who my Mom was and why she was such a special person. My Mom had Schizophrenia and it was something that was not talked about when I was growing up. No one ever explained what type of illness my Mom had, ever! Because of this, I lived in fear of her disease and my Mom as well. On the few occasions that I saw her when I was a child, (because she was in a hospital) I was frightened and horrified by her. It was not until I was 16 that I even heard the name of her illness, Schizophrenia. There was and still is a huge stigma about mental illness and for this reason and to honor my sweet Mom, I am writing this blog. It is for the love I felt for her and the unique and important relationship we developed after I found her in 1993 until she passed away. in May 2011.
This blog is about love and much deep, deep love. It is about loss and much deep deep loss. But mostly this blog is about life and much deep, deep life. It is about the life and the living that we did along the way to create an extraordinary bond. My Mom was my friend in life and I miss her. I hope that this blog reaches out to others who may have experienced a profound relationship and then the loss of it? Or maybe for someone who has a mental illness? Possibly, someone who has a loved one suffering from severe Schizophrenia may find warmth and comfort here? I wish for everyone to chime in and let your story be heard. I am no expert, and I have no degrees (except an art degree) I am only a saddened person who lost her Mom and wants to make sure that people know who that Mom was. My hope is that she will not be forgotten like she was when I was a child. My Mom was an awesome woman before she became ill and as I have learned, one after. Her illness stripped her of the wonderful life that awaited her and my father when they married. That woman trapped and although hard to find, still lived inside her and it is my desire to let her out and to set her free. Please follow along with me on this third part of my journey, inside the heart and soul of my beautiful Mom. This blog will feature memories, stories and recollections that I have in my heart about all the years we learned about who each other was. Sometimes the memories will be funny and sometimes sad. Sometimes memories are painful, but they are real. I struggled through lots of feelings of deep sorrow and lots of fear, but I've come out the other side. My Mom's blog will be whatever I am feeling at the moment as I sit at the computer to express my heart and soul. I will post randomly about what I remember and what I think now about my Mom and her life. I will talk about the things I have learned and lessons I've been taught by my Mom that I've only just realized now. I will post photos of my Mom and my childhood and all the years I longed for a MOM. Expect feelings and emotions to be shared. This is a place for feeling and feeling deep. So for now, it’s time to express that I found my MOM and this is her story.
